Friday, October 31, 2003

1. What was your first Halloween costume?
i don't remember my first one. but my mom made me a lovely clown costume one year. and one time i used one of my ballerina costumes as my halloween costume. and more than one time i just wore some indian clothes. (lame, huh).

2. What was your best costume and why?
i dunno. like i said, i'm not that big a fan of halloween... just gimme the candy, man.

3. Did you ever play a trick on someone who didn't give you a treat?
no. i was a lame old lady in the womb.

4. Do you have any Halloween traditions? (ie: Family pumpkin carving, special dinner before trick or treating, etc.)
no. see above. oh. but since grad school i've been boycotting halloween. i usually take the evening easy, sleep, watch tv, watch a movie. it's nice and relaxing.

5. Share your favorite scary story...real or legend!
i woke up one day and had 5 gray hairs.

i'm having a good friday, after a tough week. lots of changes, lots of good. tonight, snuggle with the cat and watch a movie. not scary.

1. What was your first Halloween costume?
2. What was your best costume and why?
3. Did you ever play a trick on someone who didn't give you a treat?
4. Do you have any Halloween traditions? (ie: Family pumpkin carving, special dinner before trick or treating, etc.)
5. Share your favorite scary story...real or legend!

If Mike doesn't post Friday Five for this week, someone else needs to come up with questions. I'm q'ed out for this week.

Thursday, October 30, 2003

My visit is going to be a really long one; applying to a program at Kapiolani Community College which will start in April '04. Planning a trip to NYC/Philly, Seattle/Portland before then. It looks like I may have to shelve India this summer. I keep telling myself that if I'm going to get shot, it might as well be with a bullet I choose for myself. Filial piety means we are all born with the cord wrapped around our necks and it stays there, tightening and loosening over the course of our lives.

One of my co-workers has recently been making a point of how good I'm looking (thanks bub, I'm not stupid, I look in the mirror before I leave the house). Then the other day while I'm on break and having lunch with the supps buyer, he tells us that he and his wife are looking to swing. Ew. Ick. Bleagh. I'm very old-fashioned and romantic about marriage: if you are going to be married, be married. Before marriage, have group sex with barnyard animals (consenting and of age, of course) and grape popsicles if you want, but after you stand up in front of your friends and family and make lifelong promises, that's it, one and only for ever and ever and ever. For better, for worse, in sickness and in health, but not in a daisy chain, goddamnit.

Z, I'll invite you to my bachelor party.

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

i thought we all might enjoy this tid bit:

Jennifer Aniston flips over toilet paper . . . literally.

Yes, the woman named by Forbes magazine as the most powerful star on the planet, the woman who's married to Brad Pitt and makes $1 million an episode for "Friends," absolutely cannot STAND it when she walks into a bathroom and sees a roll of TP hung so that the first sheet comes under the roll rather than over it.

She is compelled to turn it over. It's her No. 1 pet peeve when it comes to doing No. 1 or No. 2.

"If you have it under, sometimes it flies off," she explains. "I will change the toilet paper if I'm in someone's house and the paper thing is under. I'll always flip it."

And in case you were wondering (and we know you are), Jen's preference puts her in the majority, according to a national survey. Nearly 70 percent of respondents claim to be in the "over" camp, while 25 percent opt for "under."

Z: I will be your date to any baseball game you choose.

You know, people are funny. They assume that if you are dressed in sweats and have your hair in a pony tail that you don't count for shit. For instance, I went dressed like so to a mayoral debate last night. There were a few canidates shaking hands with the crowd prior to, and wouldn't you knoew two people looked right over me. Honestly it doesn't personally offend me, b/c I prefer not to shake hands for show. But if someone made time to attend a canidates forum it is safe to assume that they at least give a shit.....

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

1.) If you had only $5 to spend for lunch/dinner in the city you currently reside, where would you go and what would you eat?

I could get a lunch special at the Boba House, which is the new vegetarian place across the street from the record store. But, I'm really one of the rice and lentil no-meat loafs that I can get at Earthfare. They're a hearty meal, but expensive. $4+.

2.) If you had only $5 to purchase a gift for a 10-year old girl or boy (you pick) what would you get and why?

Could I get a book for five bucks? If so, I'd probably do that. Holes, maybe.

3.) If you had $5 in gas money (or in bus transfers) on a lazy day where would you go and what would you do?

If five bucks could get me to Chapel Hill and back I might do that. And just hang out. If it was the summer, I'd drive to the Dan and go tubing.

4.) If you could only spend $5 on a date, where would you take your interest and what would you do to entertain yourselves (CLEAN ANSWERS ONLY)?

A baseball game is my preferred choice, but those dates seem to tank. Movies and shows are under five sometimes. But, those dates tank too. Maybe, I'd spend four dollars on two turns in the photobooth at the store.

5.) And in keeping with my theme, if you had $5 to spend for a gift for a bachlor/bachlorette party (but you can't spend it on exotic dancers or alcoholic drinks) what would you get and why?

Oh shit, I don't know. Chances are I wouldn't be invited to a bachelor party anyway.

I have been so impressed with the Friday Five answers. My favorite? "batteries.everyone needs batteries." Shelly, I could just SEE the look on your FACE as you typed your answer.

1.) If you had only $5 to spend for lunch/dinner in the city you currently reside, where would you go and what would you eat?
There is a place called Jenni's Noodles that has a menu that consists of $3 steals, $5 deals, $7 meals. I think the ginger tofu is a $5 deal. A veggie plate special from Lbuy's cafeteria. There are tons of Vietnamese/pho places near where I work. I could get a two peice dinner from Popeyes for that much. Oh Whole Foods has a great tofu pad thai which is great. And there is place called the South Asia Cafe (great chicken korma and saag) -- the buffet is 4.99.

2.) If you had only $5 to purchase a gift for a 10-year old girl or boy (you pick) what would you get and why?
If it were a girl I'd probably buy some finger nail polish and make an afternoon of it. If it were a boy, I'd probably drag him to a sporting event or to the batting cages.

3.) If you had $5 in gas money (or in bus transfers) on a lazy day where would you go and what would you do?
To the beach to walk bare-foot through sand and to hear the waves crash against the shore. To the park with a friend to walk around the trek and people watch. To the country to see the bluebonnets all along the road. Walk through Central Market and think about all the things I could make with different ingredients. That alone could take three hours.

4.) If you could only spend $5 on a date, where would you take your interest and what would you do to entertain yourselves (CLEAN ANSWERS ONLY)?
The bookstore/library thing is a good one. It would be fun to pick out your fav books and talk about why they are your favs over coffee. The Big Easy very rarely has a cover, and they have pool/darts. That is always fun. There is an outdoor theatre that has free shows (Shakespeare Fest, taiko drums, motown, etc.) on the weekends. Oh Thurs. it's free to get in at the MFA. Challenge him to a game of Scrabble.

5.) And in keeping with my theme, if you had $5 to spend for a gift for a bachlor/bachlorette party (but you can't spend it on exotic dancers or alcoholic drinks) what would you get and why?
Again hard to beat Shelly, though I like the film answer. For under $5 you can get an array of flavored oils (2 for $1). Glow in the dark condoms. Extra-extra large in length condoms. Tiny condoms. Rainbow condoms.

What prompted question 5 and how do I know how much those things cost? I threw a bachlorette party this weekend.

Mike: you probably already heard this but they let Grady Little go....

Monday, October 27, 2003

1.) If you had only $5 to spend for lunch/dinner in the city you currently reside, where would you go and what would you eat?
i usually get one of the following:
soup
sammich from deli
veggie sushi
chinese from buffet
indian from a few blocks away
i think these are all my options under the 5.

2.) If you had only $5 to purchase a gift for a 10-year old girl or boy (you pick) what would you get and why?
i don't know anything about 10 year old boys or girls. i'm not sure at all. in my ignorance, i would get something totally lame. or, maybe a book. or a movie.

3.) If you had $5 in gas money (or in bus transfers) on a lazy day where would you go and what would you do?
i would drive out to a nice part of Fairmont park and have a picnic. or maybe i would go to the art museum (but that would cost me another $10 when i got there). or i would walk to the movie theater and catch a matinee for my 5.

4.) If you could only spend $5 on a date, where would you take your interest and what would you do to entertain yourselves (CLEAN ANSWERS ONLY)?
this is the question of the moment. gimme ideas!! so far i've come up with rent movies. it's too cold for water ice these days, but that was totally the choice date for summertime and then go sit in a park. coffee dates are fun. bookstores are fun. maybe i should research which museums are 5 or less.

5.) And in keeping with my theme, if you had $5 to spend for a gift for a bachlor/bachlorette party (but you can't spend it on exotic dancers or alcoholic drinks) what would you get and why?
i'm not sure. i have to research this at the shop down the street. something funny.

i have boycotted halloween for the last 4 years. at first it just started out cuz i was an overowrked grad student, and it was the perfect time to catch up on sleep after midterm week. but now... i'm old and lame and i just don't like gettin all dressed up. there's a possibility i have a boycotting partner this year, which would be all sorts of great fun.

this past weekend was a big indian holiday. i spent all weekend by myself. i wanted to spend it with people, but the people i wanted to be with were all busy with their own lives. this made me upset and grumpy. so i ate a lot of chicken curry (i made the best curry i think i've ever made too). i rented a couple bollywood movies, one of which i feel it's my duty to the world to tell you about. it's called Disco Dancer. i am going to find this fine film on DVD, and then make everyone i know watch it. it's the most fantastic, horrible movie ever. and the songs... the songs!!! i'm telling you, this is quite an experience.
i tried to get my favorite dessert from the indian grocery too, but for some reason i did not succeed in that endeavor, but when i return the movie later this week, i'll try not to flake on dessert. mmmm.

my computer is fixable, thank goodness. i'll get it back sometime this week.



Halloween - my favorite holiday cause candy + costumes is approaching. What festivities abound for you guys? I'm carving my pumpkin head tomorrow - I'm thinking about gluing the seeds all over the face to some effect. As for an outfit, this year inspiration hasn't struck. I tried on all my wigs last night (purple, pink, green, black and pale blue) but nothing. I may redo my voodoo doll costume from years past but want to find something around the house that will cause no $$. What about y'all?

Mike, by the time you read this it may be pointless. The EasyEverything internet cafe franchise has locations all over London, cheap rates as well. Also in Amsterdam (Damrak, Reguliersbreestraat and Leidsestraat). The site has street maps. I went to the cafe by Victoria Station, convenient to a teeny little boutique Sainsburys.

I am taking the week off from working at the co-op. Dad is in Australia and Mom is taking the opportunity to "take a swim in Lake Me", plus I need to get a little distance. Z will understand what I mean when I grumble about how the ones who won't let you throw out a piece of moldy fruit are the same ones who can't keep it together to make sure perishable items get rotated and stocked properly, thereby preventing much more waste than a single moldy pear. Grr.

I have tinkered around with a recipe and come up with a mango smoothie that tastes like what would happen if Orange Julius married a nice lassi.

Sunday, October 26, 2003

Have just read an article stating that neurochemicals, not ones unconcious desires, most responsible for dreams. So I'm not going to worry about this one:

Two weeks married to college prof (who looks an awful lot like Wesley of Buffy/Angel) who is still living with ex-wife and children and about to move in with me. Earthquake strikes, chunk falls out of ceiling, goodbye hubby. I say "at least we had those two weeks" and griefstricken go to a seminar. Later in same dream have sex with hermaphrodite (or man on hormone therapy? couldn't tell).

Friday, October 24, 2003

1.) If you had only $5 to spend for lunch/dinner in the city you currently reside, where would you go and what would you eat?

It's all fast food around here. I'd wait for a day that I'd be working in Honolulu, and go to Yao's for the salmon special plate. They broil the salmon with a mixture of miso and mayo. Rich, salty goodness. Or I'd go to Andy's for a guava smoothie, substantial enough for lunch.

2.) If you had only $5 to purchase a gift for a 10-year old girl or boy (you pick) what would you get and why?

I'd hit the dollar store and put together a little theme bundle. Or I'd make something, like a tiny notebook. That or use it as a going out fund - walk around, have a soda, buy a postcard.

3.) If you had $5 in gas money (or in bus transfers) on a lazy day where would you go and what would you do?

Hiking, either in Manoa Valley or on Tantalus.

4.) If you could only spend $5 on a date, where would you take your interest and what would you do to entertain yourselves (CLEAN ANSWERS ONLY)?

Go to the Contemporary Museum and interact with the sculptures in the garden. Or go to the Academy of Arts Center (exhibits are free) and get coffee afterwards. If I used the $5 in bus transfers and I happened to be in Seattle, I'd go to Archie McPhee's and spend $5 in the photo booth.

5.) And in keeping with my theme, if you had $5 to spend for a gift for a bachlor/bachlorette party (but you can't spend it on exotic dancers or alcoholic drinks) what would you get and why?

A roll of film. If I could find a package of Polaroid film for under $5, I'd get that.

1.) If you had only $5 to spend for lunch/dinner in the city you currently reside, where would you go and what would you eat?
black bean or mashed potato tacos or pho or gyros or potstickers are all in range.

2.) If you had only $5 to purchase a gift for a 10-year old girl or boy (you pick) what would you get and why? interesting books from the thrift store and a pack of crayons. we'd cut the books up and repurpose them into a journal/ collage.

3.) If you had $5 in gas money (or in bus transfers) on a lazy day where would you go and what would you do?
go to kubota gardens. it is a couple of transfers away, but it currently my favorite park in the city. i can jump onto one of the rocks in a pond and it is big enough island for comfortable sitting.

4.) If you could only spend $5 on a date, where would you take your interest and what would you do to entertain yourselves (CLEAN ANSWERS ONLY)? browse for library books. take a chocolate milkshake or hot chocolate (seasonal) to read aloud to each other in the park.

5.) And in keeping with my theme, if you had $5 to spend for a gift for a bachlor/bachlorette party (but you can't spend it on exotic dancers or alcoholic drinks) what would you get and why?
batteries.everyone needs batteries.

This week's Friday Five, from yours truly

1.) If you had only $5 to spend for lunch/dinner in the city you currently reside, where would you go and what would you eat?

2.) If you had only $5 to purchase a gift for a 10-year old girl or boy (you pick) what would you get and why?

3.) If you had $5 in gas money (or in bus transfers) on a lazy day where would you go and what would you do?

4.) If you could only spend $5 on a date, where would you take your interest and what would you do to entertain yourselves (CLEAN ANSWERS ONLY)?

5.) And in keeping with my theme, if you had $5 to spend for a gift for a bachlor/bachlorette party (but you can't spend it on exotic dancers or alcoholic drinks) what would you get and why?

I'm back. I just spent the last week on a family vacation to Arizona. Grand Canyon, yeah. Red rocks, yeah. Eight days in the car with family, no my friend, not again for a long time. Everyone's great - but that exceeded my limit. It's so nice to be home again. Last night I sang a little song - it went something like this
"hello, my home, so nice to be home again, hello refridgerator, why are you so empty, hello bed, I'm so glad to be home again," (I didn't say it was a good song).
Angel - it gets a big "eh" from me this season. I loved how dark last season got with the Conner storyline - but I stopped liking Spike at the beginning of Season 4 Buffy so I won't be tuning in. Alias is my tv of choice.
So I even watched some baseball this weekend and enjoyed it. I am so not about sports but it was hard not to get caught up.
Now I have a jillion emails and phone messages to get through. Hope everyone is having a nice week.

I ran a red light at full speed on my way to work a few minutes ago. I came very, very close to a serious crash or death. I don't know what I was thinking about. Actually, one thought I do remember was seeing the 18 wheeler pulling into the intersection and thinking, "This guy isn't going to stop and I'm going to have to swerve him." Then another car blows in front of me at like 30 miles an hour and I realize I'm the one who's run the light. It was just like a movie. If the transfer truck had been going any faster, or if the other car had been going any slower, I'd be fucked up right now. Jesus, my muscles are all weak. I'm normally a very safe driver.

Can you tell I've been hiding from my family by sitting down in front of the computer and slapping on headphones? Filial piety has me all cranky and pouty and childish right now.

Am working on a "Karaoke Nightmare" mix CD for a friend. So far it looks like:
Livin' On A Prayer (Bon Jovi)
Lay Your Hands On Me (again)
I'll Be There For You (and again)
Burning Love (Wynona Judd)
I'm So Lonely I Could Cry (Elvis Presley)
Fire (Ho'onua)
Stuck On You ('Ekolu)
My Own Way (Duran Duran)
Only Love Can Break Your Heart (St Etienne)
Close To Me (the Cure)
Do You Really Want To Hurt Me (Violent Femmes)
Too Shy (Kajagoogoo)
True (Spandau Ballet)
You Spin Me Round (Dead or Alive)
Let's Get It On (Jack Black)

and a mix CD because he's been living in Japan for the past several years and doesn't keep up on what's going on the US much (as in, he didn't know the Great White fire in Rhode Island story until last week). I'm still tinkering with this one.

Karaoke Nightmare Future
Stacy's Mom (Fountains of Wayne)
Imaginary Friends (J Church)
Berlin 1945 (Neutral Milk Hotel)
(No More Room For) Communication (Radio 4)
New World Water (Mos Def)
A Chicken With Its Head Cut Off (Magnetic Fields)
Where Is The Love? (Black Eye Peas w/Justin Timberlake)
Time Of My Life (Macy Gray)
Without Me (Eminem)
Objection (Shakira)
Beautiful (Christina Aguilera)

One more for the Automatically Eliminated list: white boy with dreadlocks. I just...can't.

Thursday, October 23, 2003

I took the inkblot test, which made me giggle. Some of the questions are so...Freudian!

"Your subconscious mind is driven most by Peace.
You have a deeply-rooted desire to make peace in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with loved ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to be able to influence the world in a positive way.
You have a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it, and you inspire others to feel the same way. Your innate drive toward peace guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others."

I have renewed my Netflix membership, and ran across a movie that I saw when I was a wee thing and which seriously freaked my shit out and gave me wacky dreams for weeks afterward: Fantastic Planet, an animated French film. I'm kinda relieved that the movie actually exists. I saw it on public television when I was, oh, 8 or 9. I did a search on it; apparently it was an allegory for the invasion of Czechoslovakia's invasion by Soviet troops in the late 60's. And it is apparently popular with hippies who like to watch while stoned.

I suck, I got a 117 and am an Inventive Inquisitor.

You have the unusual distinction of being equally good at math and verbal skills. This means you are a creative thinker and are uniquely good at teaching others through experiences. You are also a great improviser and very good at handling change.

I just didn't feel like figuring out the logic of those damn shapes and shit.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

i'm 131. We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test. According to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is a Word Warrior.
This means you have exceptional verbal skills. You can easily make sense of complex issues and take an unusually creative approach to solving problems. Your strengths also make you a visionary. Even without trying you're able to come up with lots of new and creative ideas.

these people are nice. but i know i got all the math questions right too. maybe i'll take it again to test them. maybe i'll also take that inkblot test. ha.

very sad about elliott smith. i've been mourning all day. i've also been morning the loss of my computer... i think it's dead. i'm having someone examine it and pronounce the t.o.d. this weekend. if it really is gone, then i guess i get a fancy new powerbook. but honestly, i'd rather just have my computer back from the dead.
okay... i think maria's cookin me dinner tonight! yum. see ya's.

Z, you probably cheated.

Not that it's worth arguing about, as we are both using our high intellect to sling granola around. Quick, you spot the pattern in the tempeh display, and I'll write a children's book about it!

Hey, Kainui - It's confirmed.

My IQ score is 133

We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician.
This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

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Sad news about Elliott Smith. Check here.

According to the eMode IQ Test:
Score: 129
"We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is an Insightful Linguist.
This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results."

I happen to know I got some of the answers right only because of the classes I took to for my math requirements in college (Logic & Philosophy and a wacky math class with a title that should have been "math for art majors"). But I'm willing to deal with being considered highly intelligent, especially for a fantasy planet (Z, all comments about my girth can be kept to your damn self).

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Wow. Shelly has Rat Dip! Ranch flavor, I bet.

Angie, you have a point. I don't listen to AfD once per day.

If my checking account didn't look so flat right now, I'd be buying a ticket to Monster Island. Or anywhere, really. I'll stick it out and do like the dream said and try to shove this treebranch through an undead ribcage instead.

1. Name five things in your refrigerator.
two kinds organic juice, two eggs, one container soy milk, condiments, can't think of anything else, there isn't much in my refrigerator, maybe cheese?

2. Name five things in your freezer.
year old bags of organic blueberries, rat food pellets, baggies of mixed vegetables made for the rats, empty ice cube trays, frozen headache mask

3. Name five things under your kitchen sink.
empty plastic bags, wood polish, dish soap, rat dip, dustpan

4. Name five things around your computer.
list of research topics and library books to check out, glow in the dark caterpillar toy, cds, half empty mug of tea, pictures of family and friends

5. Name five things in your medicine cabinet.
dental floss, deoderant, lotion, perfume, nail clippers

6. Guns N Roses Yea or Nay.
Hell yeah!

Guess which one of the five people who live in my house didn't get laid last night. I'll get you a hint: it was me. Monster Island, I miss you.

Monday, October 20, 2003

Louise, do you listen to the Appettite for Destruction album at least once a day? Likely not. If I hear a song on the radio, I'm not ashamed to admit that I sing it. But to listen to it on a daily basis is just plain weird.

Pretty fucking cool about the fantasy planets.......

P.S. my refrigerator and freezer have tons of shit in it, I just listed the staples. Most exciting thing that the fridge has is a doggie bag of yummy ass jambalaya. Oh yeah.

Was annoyed at the office today b/c I had a huge ass accomplishment that someone else took the credit for. My boss at the very least knows the credit is all mine but how the fuck frustrating is that.

Anyways I have a big ass event tomorrow, and I will be a new woman when it is over. Also been involved in lots of side extra curriculars that are wearing my ass down. But that's of my own doing, as always. Can't help but live up to that self-imposed overachieving standard of mine, now can I?

wow. they named a planet after you? that's amazing. i always knew you had superpowers.
i had a fierce battle with the snot monster last week, it was awful. i finally figures out a few magic tricks to scare it away. but while the snot monster was giving me trouble, i got to watch soap operas. and for the first time ever i watched general hospital, it was good.

refrigerator: a gallon of water, a liter of seltzer water, butter, rice, yogurt.

freezer: ice, chocolate morsels, ground turkey.

under your kitchen sink: cleaning supplies, trash can, plastic bags, empty plant containers.

around your computer: post its, bills, tape measure, cuticle remover, pen.

medicine cabinet: hydrogen peroxide, witch hazel, red hair dye (that i don't want anymore, do you?), glasses, q.tips.

Angie, I happen to be a fan of Guns 'n Roses. As for items to make one run in the opposite direction, what about "Mrn recently returned from Iraq"? Should I give him the benefit of the doubt? He reads Kurt Vonnegut...

In the fridge: free-range eggs, leftover mac 'n cheese, two almost empty quarts of organic milk, a sack of fresh ginger, a huge container of Tony's (thanx Angie!)

Freezer: ice cube trays, gel packs of the sort you apply to sore muscles, gel packs of the sort you put in a cooler so the milk won't spoil on the one-hour drive back to the house in 80 degree weather, mango puree, unidentifiable frostburned something in old Tupperware.

Under the kitchen sink: newspaper, a cat.

Around the computer: printer, stack of blank CDs, package of paper plates, notebook, blue sharpie marker, paper napkin with arrows drawn on it in ballpoint pen and an email address beneath them.

Medicine cabinet: bandages, mostly in the larger sizes. Tea tree oil, rubbing alcohol, cotton swabs, cotton balls.

Found on a website about science fiction (Z, you will love this): "Clement’s latest novel, Noise, is set in a far away solar system where two water-covered planets (Kainui and Kaihapa) are orbiting a double sun. Kainui was settled by Polynesian space-faring colonists many years before. The planet is a harsh environment with a deadly atmosphere made up of carbon monoxide and acidic water where severe storms, waterspouts, and tsunamis generate a permanent, deafening roar called “noise”. The inhabitants of Kainui live on floating cities that are actually alive and were grown using advanced biotechnologies. Mike Hoani, an anthropologist from Earth, arrives to study how the various Polynesian languages have evolved since colonization. Hoani joins the crew of a sea-mining ship that is prospecting for pseudolife (a human-made life form). What follows is a series of adventures on a strange and dangerous planet. From the challenges of the deadly ocean to new discoveries that will rock the colonists to the core of their beliefs and customs, Mike Hoani is on a voyage of discovery, not only to unlock the mysteries of Kainui, but to also discover something about himself."

I don't think Top Gun is so bad. I once dated a boy whose favorite band was/is still Guns and Roses. that should have sent me running the other way, but I gave him the benefit of the doubt.

1. Name five things in your refrigerator.
Cheese, orange juice, milk, mayo, spicy mustard, Italian dressing (makes a good marinade), BBQ sauce, kung pao sauce.

2. Name five things in your freezer.
Lean cuisine, stew, frozen meats, boudin, pork buns, ice cream.

3. Name five things under your kitchen sink.
A fry daddy, some dish washing detergent, not much else.

4. Name five things around your computer.
Post-it notes, pens, Sharpie, phone, random stuffed animals that were given to me as gifts, Post-it notes posted to my minotor (great reminders).

5. Name five things in your medicine cabinet.
Alleave, Zantac, Glide dental floss, Body Shop green tea stick (for acne), Clinique moisturizer, Lubiderm anti-wrinkle cream, skin renewing face masque.

Z, my point exactly.

Sunday, October 19, 2003

Kainui - As if more evidence was needed that you and I were not meant to be together... Top Gun is easily in my top ten favorite movies. I absolutely love it.

Saturday, October 18, 2003

I can see that I will be spending far more money on music this year than I have for the past...um, 10 years, thanks to iTunes. I'm going to make a mix CD for my Dad's birthday, and a "bad karaoke memories" mix CD for a friend of mine, etc. And I'll be supporting the music industry with my spare change.

Added to my List of Disqualifications for Dating: major fans of "Top Gun" the movie (major fans of the videogame get flagged).

Friday, October 17, 2003

I had a pair of nightmares the night before the Sox loss. The first one I can't even talk about, just that I woke up cold and sweating and nauseous. I went back to sleep and had a Buffy nightmare (once again, my subcon gremlins are lazy) in which I was being chased down hallways by the undead. I was fighting back, but it was hard and not very successful (trying to stab someone repeatedly with a tree branch isn't easy when you aren't the Slayer). I will, however, take it as a sign that I may not be very good at fighting my demons, but I am fighting and even winning.

Mike: we'll have to agree to disagree on Pedro/Zimm. RE: last night. Why didn't they pull Pedro sooner?

RE: the Cubs fan. Was not his fault. One play does not translate into eight runs, any 5-year old Little Leaguer can tell you that much.

Zach, that confession site is something else.

So I've been running again (after taking a summer haitus). My training's been a lot more gruesome this go around, but I am happy to announce that I ran 4 miles -- my longest trek ever -- and I felt fine afterwards. Hell I probably could have gone another mile or two, though I didn't test it! The weather change is helping.....I'm going to sign up for the next program in the spring to work on speed. After completing it, I will re-evaluate how committed to running I am. If I choose to go further there is a half marathon/marathon group that starts up in July. But in order to train properly I would need to continue running three or four times a week. It sucks, because it limits me from doing so many other things (museum visits, happy hours, fertilizing my lawn, etc.), but in the end I feel great afterwards. Baby steps, I'll make my decision later on.....

I've heard the Fire Theft album once or twice in the store. It sounds good-more like SDRE than the last Sunny Day album, actually-but, I haven't paid close enough attention to pass judgement. Andrew and Mike and Thad (all from the store) tell me its great. I'm not really in a emo-y place right now. I'd rather listen to Steely Dan or Michael Jackson or Talking Heads. There aren't enough conga tracks on the Fire Theft to catch my notice.

That confession site is troubling and addictive at the same time.

Steph - What are your thoughts on the first three episodes of Angel this season? (Have you seen them?) I'm trying to keep an open mind, but I can't help being a little disappointed. It all the least interesting things about Buffy/Angel (Monster of the Week/stock characterizations/bad British slang) without the stuff I like (the great dialog/the mythology/the drama). I'm hoping they can pull it up. After all, there have only been three episodes so far. More Wesley! Less Super-Gunn! More broody Angel! Less comic relief Angel!

Have any of you seen Carnavale? That show is coool. Very freaky-deaky.

Z, WHERE did you find that site?

Mike, it could be worse. You could be a Cubs fan.

Thursday, October 16, 2003

If there is any justice left in the world, the Marlins will pimpslap the Yankees in four.

Took the kids to see School of Rock, and now I realize my entire Ramones library must have gone in one of my moving giveaways. Bawww!

Z, I like the new layout. Maybe you can use photos of alfalfa sprouts, too.

hooray Zach!! thanks for our autumn makeover!

Steph, has the house reabsorbed you into it's womb? how's unpacking going?

Mike/ Zach have you heard Fire Theft? i got a 2 song sampler and i think it is really good.

i'm working on a zine with a woman named Shell. we were talking (on IM) about the state of being overeducated and underemployed and why you would stay that way (either by conscoius choice or circumstance.) both of us happen to have not especially challenging office manager type jobs so i'm thinking about jobs that contribute little to your life except for money, or perhaps the opposite, jobs which contribute a lot ot your life, but not much in the way of money. i'm looking at Mike, Zach, and Kainui here, but any of you are welcome to participate, or if you have friends who fit the bill here and would be interested in contributing please send them to me, or send me to them. the timeline is pretty long (nothing due before early next year), and this project is in it's most preliminary stages so there is a whole lot of leeway to fit in anything that fits the theme. in Shell's words, "Please say yes. Or say maybe and let us persuade you." hooray for overeducated underachieving

Oh my goodness. Look at this.

Zach, the changes look GREAT. RE: the links. I don't have a web site or anything to link to, so I am afraid that you won't be getting any submissions from me.

Mike, you opened yourself up RE: Pedro/Zimmer. Yes, Zimmer was wrong to charge Pedro, I don't dispute it. But when I think of people who are 65 or older (I'll refer to them as "seniors"), you enter a completely different category. It's as if a 7 year old would have charged at Pedro. Would he have shoved a 7 year old to the ground? Zimmer, as a senior, is clearly more capable of making decisions and of understanding the implications of those decisions than a child, but the guy is 70 plus years old, and 200 pounds or more. Pedro is probably 150 pounds soaking wet and 40 years Zimm's junior. You can't tell me that 1. Pedro never saw Zimm coming (that's the equivilent of saying you can't see a 18-wheeler mack truck charging you at 5 miles an hour) and 2. Pedro was incapable of stepping aside as Zimmer charged at him.

In the end, Zimmer made a tearful apology for the world to hear. Where was Pedro? Probably watching the apology in the club house saying aloud, "You damn right you're sorry Zimm, because next time I'm coming at YOUR HEAD."

Even Clemens, who is KNOWN for his hot headedness, was able to contain himself in last week's game.

I'm tired of asshole athletes getting away with bullshit that real people would never be able to even consider (i.e., the fucker Yankees right fielder who used his cleats to walk over the back and neck of that Fenway worker).

Sorry for all of the bloggers who aren't familiar with the above topic, it just hits a very sore spot with me. People who can't act right should be locked up in the tower.....

P.S. Aside from the above feelings, I'm still rooting for the Red Sox to win tonight and the World Series.

I hadn't noticed the lack of blogger button. I'll fix that tonight.

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

Okay, guys serve up some links. i'd rather have links to things that are a part of your lives rather than interests or whatever.

Positive comments will be accepted. Negative comments, Kainui, will be referred to my fat ass.

1.) When you are upset or angry, what do you do to relieve those feelings?
Depends on the situation. Generally speaking, people know when I am pissed off. With family members, I let things boil over, resulting in a huge bitch fest with one of them being on the defensive because they can't get a word in edgewise. I do a lot of bitching (go figure!), because when I bitch I think out loud. After rants and thinking about how p'eed off I am, I end up telling somebody something. It's not always in a confrontational way but my point is clear. A few fights though just aren't worth the battle -- whether that be a character trait that just won't go away or a result of complete ignorance incapable of any curing.

2.) Has your relationship with your parents improved or worsened since you moved out of their home? Why so?
My family matters are better. When I was young my dad and I were inseperable, then there was a bad period of about five years, now it's all good. I confide more in my mom, my dad and I talk about sports and food and Chinese culture. It's weird, I really don't think of my parents as parents. I rarely go to them for advice, because our experiences are so different. My dad quit school at the 8th grade, so when he gives me career advice I take it with a grain of salt. My mom, unlike my dad and me, has no opinion about anything ("I don't know Angie...."). They are more friends than parents.

3.) What is your favorite/least vegetable?
My fav is broccoli, but I, too, have been on a string bean kick. I love corn though I know many people don't consider it a veggie. Oh I really like tofu, too. I dislike peas and brussel sprouts, and I don't like super leafy, stalky, fiber-infused, really good for you veggies. Like Chinese broccoli, but if it is cooked the right way I can convince myself to eat a stalk or two. And I am not a fan of raw veggies except cucumbers. Iceberg lettuce is a sorry excuse for food. "Mixed green salads" taste like weeds/grass, how can anyone eat that shit? Spinach lettuce and romaine lettuce are the ways to go!

4.) If you could change your name what would you change it to?
I LOVE MY NAME.

5.) Would/have you ever gone sky diving?
I'm afraid of heights, but I have talked about doing it for my 30th b-day. We'll see.

Big changes in the look of blog coming tonight. Look out!

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Z, I am with you on hippie food. My personal un-favorite is that Veggie Booty stuff, which has a flavor and texture that go well with the name. Like eating stale, ass-flavored styrofoam. There's a locally made popcorn snack coated with spirulina (aka blue-green algae, and yes, it tastes like...algae). What I don't get is that yeah, some of this stuff can be really good for you health-wise, but why would you want to taste it on a SNACK? The whole point of snacking is mindless pleasure. Why ruin it with the flavor of a pond in mid-summer?

One could argue that I am paying attention to baseball, if one means that I am paying attention to it in the sense that I acknowledge the existence of baseball and that I recognize the sound of a baseball game being broadcast on a radio that someone else is listening to. It does not mean that I have any clue as to what is going on in the world of baseball, but I will say that nobody has the right to push down a 70-year old man except perhaps another 70-year old man.

The 60 hour work week continues. I'm running on E all the time these days, but, you know, its okay. I'm getting things done, making some dough, getting out.

A breakdown:

Carson-Dellosa Publishing - I've been working here for over a month now. I feel very comfortable and I really like both what I'm doing and who I work with. If I was offered a permanent position I'd take it in a minute. I don't know the likelihood of that happening, but I think that I'm well liked and doing a good job. The office is really casual. I'm wearing jeans and my shirt is untucked. They seem to be unconcerned about my unkept hair and busted out shoes. Most of the time I work on books and listen to my walkman. There are two types of work I do. For the more complex proofing and rewriting stuff, I listen to music. But, for the much more mindless correcting work, I can listen to audiobooks. Nothing moves a day along like a task and an audiobook. Today, I've been listening to the audio of Al Franken's Lying Liars book. Its funny.

Gate City Noise - The record shop is a good place to work and hang and stuff. I still really love it there. I can only work twice a week, so I'm not around as much as I was. We've got some fun stuff coming up. The Reading Day sale is going to be 24 hours with bands playing at 5am. I think my band is going to play the opening slot. Then some others from around. We've got a photobooth in there now. i should scan some of the photos to show you guys.

Deep Roots Market - Deep Roots has the hottest staff on the planet. I feel like I'm throwing off the average. All in all, a nice place to work. And I'll be relying on it when Carson-Dellosa kicks me out. I don't know nearly enough about health food to work there though. I'm slowly picking things up, but its hard. Hippies eat some fruity shit.

Dawn Chorus - The band just finished our mixing. I can't remember if I already told you that. The finished stuff is nice. Clay, the guy who mixed it, comes from a reduction school, meaning anything you don't need on the song, you dump. we pulled so much off one song, its sounds like a totally different song. Its great.

1.) When you are upset or angry, what do you do to relieve those feelings?
I try to exercise or write in my journal and talk it out with the person in best case scenario. Worst case, I impersonate a toddler and wail around my room.

2.) Has your relationship with your parents improved or worsened since you moved out of their home? Why so?
I think it's about the same. I'm about to go on a family vacation with them to the Grand Canyon this week - I'll let you know when I get back.

3.) What is your favorite/least vegetable?
I'm a veggie lover. I agree with the it's all in the preparation - and pour cheese on it and I'll like about anything. But if forced to chose, I really like spinach. Least - definately cauliflower.

4.) If you could change your name what would you change it to?
I like my name - but it might be fun to add on even more syllables.

5.) Would/have you ever gone sky diving?
You mean "falling from the sky" - does not appeal.

So I went to my college roommate's wedding this past weekend - I was part photographer/part guest. Oh, it was so nice - very laid back plans - very laid back wedding. I love working with an organized, mellow bride. And it was a college reunion as well. I love how weddings allow me to see so many friends from far away in one place. (people traveled from Puerto Rico, France, Tanzania).

Monday, October 13, 2003

1.) When you are upset or angry, what do you do to relieve those feelings?

Context dependent. Maybe all I need to do is take a deep breath and put it all in perspective. Or maybe I need to break something. If a person has pissed me off, I enjoy plotting really over-the-top, ridiculous revenge schemes that wind up making me laugh, thereby dispelling the ill feelings. Zach can get me really angry sometimes, the kind of angry where I will shout and stomp and then sit down and type furiously for 20 minutes and then stomp around some more and do some research and talk it out and then type again. Last night my sister sassed me and then hit me with the gravy ladle, so I pulled the tongs out of the salad and told her I was going to pop her eyes out with them (right after I finished licking gravy off my arm). A typical family dinner. Zach likes to throw bits of lettuce into my water glass. He'd fit right in. And I bet he'd agree with my nephew, who says the macaroni and cheese I made from scratch tonight with sharp cheddar cheese is weird, mainly because it's not yellow. But he did like the broccoli braised with garlic.

2.) Has your relationship with your parents improved or worsened since you moved out of their home? Why so?

Let me move out of their home again and I'll let you know. Right now, I'm convinced my mother leaves burners on and then sets plastic chopping boards on them just to piss me off. Every chopping board in the kitchen is warped and has at least one big melted spot in the shape of a coil. Ack. Ack. Ack. My relationship with my father has stayed the same, for the most part. He talks to me more when I'm living on my own, though.

3.) What is your favorite/least vegetable?

I can't think of a vegetable I don't like, but I can think of a number of preparations of them that I'm not fond of. Brussel sprouts that have been halved and sauteed in butter and garlic are lovely - like cabbage with a bite. Brussel sprouts that have been boiled until gray and soggy are sad and sulfurous.

4.) If you could change your name what would you change it to?

I'm at a point in my life where I've whittled down the number of names I have in circulation. No urge to change, thanks.

5.) Would/have you ever gone sky diving?

Never have. I don't think it's likely I will, but never say never. Hang gliding looks like a blast.

1.) When you are upset or angry, what do you do to relieve those feelings?
umm, various healthy coping methods including: bottle feelings up till explosion, usually at the wrong person. occasionally the direct "talk it out approach." avoid all human contact till extreme loneliness superceded anger/upset. paint. write bad freeform poetry then rip it up before i begin to think it is "good." make loud sounds. play soccer.
2.) Has your relationship with your parents improved or worsened since you moved out of their home? Why so?
in some ways it is better, in some ways it is worse. our relationship is bound by unrealized mutual expectations and disappointment.
3.) What is your favorite/least vegetable?
really bad at picking favorite anythings. i really like edamame. most vegetables can be prepared so that i love or hate them. i'm still learning how to cook vegetables since the method i grew up on was canned and reheated or mixed into an unidentifiable casserole and add meat bits. i'd rather eat vegetables in restaurants. when cooking them myself i usually just lightly steam. i don't like cauliflower or brussel sprouts.
4.) If you could change your name what would you change it to?
as a kid i wanted to change it to anything that didn't rhyme easily, by now i'm ok with my name and don't really want to be called anything else.
5.) Would/have you ever gone sky diving?
haven't ever, probably won't. maybe when i'm really old, or maybe if someone else pays. nah, probably still not even then.

1.) When you are upset or angry, what do you do to relieve those feelings?

I've been known to kick some shit. But, I don't get that kind of angry very often. Mostly, if I'm pissed I just stew in it and listen to some music or something. I'm pretty bad about talking junk, so I'm not above going and finding someone to listen to me talk about what an asshole so and so is.

2.) Has your relationship with your parents improved or worsened since you moved out of their home? Why so?

Hard to say. Its changed a lot. They still have a lot to do with my finacial upkeep, which I think they rightfully resent a little bit, even if they don't realize it. Plus, my parents have a baffling attitude toward our relationship. They are convinced that anything beyond asking, "How are you doing?" when I call them, is an invasion of my privacy. Nothing that I've tried to convince them otherwise has work. That element of things has actually gotten a lot worse over the years to the point now where my parents manage to hurt my feelings fairly regularily with their (seeming) lack of interest in my life. But, they're good people, and they love me and I love them. I miss them. I have had a chance to see my folks in weeks and weeks.

3.) What is your favorite/least vegetable?

Onions = suck. Lately I've been really into string beans.

4.) If you could change your name what would you change it to?

Stinky McCracken.

5.) Would/have you ever gone sky diving?

Would but can't due to fatness. Sore subject.

Sunday, October 12, 2003

1.) When you are upset or angry, what do you do to relieve those feelings?
i bottle them in a become a really cranky, grumpy, jerk.

2.) Has your relationship with your parents improved or worsened since you moved out of their home? Why so?
improved, i guess. i like 'em okay now... i see that they are smart, nice human beings.

3.) What is your favorite/least vegetable?
i dunno. i like eggplant a lot. i like green beans. i've never tried a brussel sprout. i'm afriad too.

4.) If you could change your name what would you change it to?
i wouldn't

5.) Would/have you ever gone sky diving?
i don't think i'll ever go sky diving, but i might go mountian gliding.... i forget what's it's really called but i saw it in france.

Saturday, October 11, 2003

Due to the lameness of the Friday Five questions for this week, I am posting my own:

1.) When you are upset or angry, what do you do to relieve those feelings?

2.) Has your relationship with your parents improved or worsened since you moved out of their home? Why so?

3.) What is your favorite/least vegetable?

4.) If you could change your name what would you change it to?

5.) Would/have you ever gone sky diving?

Thursday, October 09, 2003

Mike F.: do you have anything to do with the Red Sox players who appear on Friendster? I'm cracking up at those testimonials!

Also, Mike F., JT and Zachary I'm calling all three of you out. None of you have written me a testimonial on Friendster. What up wit dat?

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

Last night I had a dream where I was afraid or being chased or something; that part is vague…so I went into the attic of my parents’ house and one of my coworkers (whom I barely know and am slightly intimidated by) was there tending hives of bees. He told me it was good to stay in touch with the demigods (meaning the bees.) The hive was in need of cleaning.
Then I looked into the darkness of the attic behind him. The spaces between the beams which should have been full of pink cotton candy fiberglass insulation were instead mounded with dirt. Tortoises began moving out of the mounds toward me really quickly and began leaping (?) towards me. I was overjoyed to see them because I thought they’d been lost, or died, and instead they were coming back to me.

collected interpretations...

attic
may represent higher consciousness, the mind or intellect, a higher, greater or more holistic perspective and your connection to the higher self, or hidden memories, repressed thoughts that are being revealed, or difficulties in your life that will hinder you from attaining your goals and aspirations until overcoming a long period of struggle. as an upper story it represents lofty aspirations that you will have much difficulty with, but will win out to your goals after an extended period of time. condition of the attic will provide further interpretational clues e.g. a cluttered attic may suggest an area of your life that requires attention or cleansing, if brightly lit, then you will have luck with either love or matrimony. if the attic is chaotic this will be a sign telling you to organize your thoughts for better living..

bees/ beehives
a beehive in your dream, denotes that there are many opportunities for you to get ahead in life and to not let them escape from your grasp. it symbolizes hard work and the importance of teamwork, being industrious, productive, or hard working (busy as a bee)or being obsessed with something, (a bee in your bonnet.) to see an empty beehive, signifies sorrow over love affairs and loss in income. to dream of destroying a beehive, symbolizes losses and temporary poverty.
dreaming of bees, symbolizes good luck, harmony, and bliss or work and industry. dreaming that you are stung by a bee means you are vulnerable, stung or hurt or that an unexpected misfortune is surrounding you with trouble you need to relax, let go, just be. queen bee may symbolize either needing to value yourself more or seeing yourself as being superior to others or may also symbolize the divine feminine in you

tortoise
a tortoise in your dream, suggests that you need to take some chances in order to get ahead in life. opportunities for advancement are opened to you, but you need to take the next step. slow but steady progress ,defensiveness, resilience or a hard outer façade used to protect or disguise a fragile and vulnerable inner core.

Mike et al: been meaning to e-mail this funny softball story.

So I was playing second base on Friday night. This guy, dressed like a Christmas tree (red bandana, green shirt, red shirts, neon green biking shorts), is on first base. The batter hits a grounder to the short stop who tosses it to me, I go to turn the double play when the Tree Man comes charging at me, full speed, arms up in my face. I manage to throw the ball past him but it was a sucky through and didn't make it on time. I was so mad that I pushed him off the base (he was already out), and I screamed at him, "Why do you have to be such a STINKER, breaking up my double play????????"

Well then the next inning I was on second base and Christmas tree was playing short. He looks at me and says, "I'm gonna throw you out at third." I said, "BRING IT ON." and added, "You and me are gonna have words in the parking lot later." the pitcher was cracking up at me. Then the batter hit a single to left field, and I was safe on third. So as I stepped onto third, I said, "Hey Short stop, I thought you were going to get me out. What happened?"

Thought you might appreciate the above.......

We woke up in a world where Arnold Swarzenegger is the chief executive of the world's fifth largest economy. This fucking bastard...

Thank god for Article II, Section 1 of the US Constitution.

http://www.law.cornell.edu/constitution/constitution.articleii.html#section1

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

i've been absent. i'm sorry. vacation was good. going back to work was not.
it got chilly, i LOVE fall, but i'm not ready for winter.
i am a complete head-case. i feel like a complete mess. i'm still going through an identity crisis. and maybe a mid-twenties crisis too. wait. late-twenties crisis.
i'm not happy with my job, but the state of the economy leaves me little else choice.
i've been eating many junky foods and going to the gym.
eight months later and i'm still dealing with effects of the break-in (mostly due to me being a procrastinator. or super busy?)
the docs are going well, i'm very excited about them.
that is all.

I swear, I don't know what I will do with myself once baseball season is over. I was sitting on pins and needles last night, and I've been talking shit with my boss all week (he wants a Yankess vs. Cubs series, and hates the Sox). My dad was fixing something with my TV so I was forced to listen to the game on the radio. He kept talking to me in the middle of the game -- who's up to bat, he's gonna bunt, why is he throwing sliders. He actually asked me why I wasn't going to sleep. How the hell can I go to sleep in the middle of such excitement???? Oh but the glory was so sweet this morning when my boss walked in, and I had the shit-eating grin on my face. I almost called him at home last night, but I didn't want to wake his wife up!

There needs to be a war crimes tribunal called against math teachers. Fractions are a crime against humanity. I'm sitting here adding fractions. No one has ever added fractions past the age of 12. What a worthless skill. What a waste of time.

Monday, October 06, 2003

Mike F - You are stoked. Shit, I'm stoked for you. Now we get to watch them lose to the Yankees.

Zach, rest assured, not all women want the entire male population knowing about their cat business. I for one am very private about it, I don't even openly talk about being on the rag in front of boys. It's one thing to school your partner about your issues, it's another thing to tell a random (not that you are random, but I am making a point) male co-worker. the other thing I don't walk about to random people: finances. When I was searching for that lost dog's owner on my block I ended up introducing myself to a neighbor. Would you know that within three minutes of introductions and dog talk, he had the gall to ask me how much I paid for my house? Then, a good friend of mine asked me the same question in front of two people I barely know at dinner one night. What the fuck? Why do people think that they can ask such questions and get an answer out of me? My favorite is my aunt, who has been doing this for DECADES. She thinks of ten different ways to ask me the same question (i.e., can I have a key to your house), thinking that maybe, just maybe, I will break. I don't know about y'all but I think I got at least several more decades of stubborness in me!

At the risk of sounding totally juvenile, I'd like to note the amount of female genital awareness in my life of the last few weeks. The life of the modern male geek has little to do with this subject. Perhaps unsurprisingly. But, there it is, over and over, the theme of October. Two of the women I work with are having babies. Actually, one of them delivered on Saturday. The other one has some details, all within the bounds of taste, but all basically about the first lady's pipes. I'm listening to fifteen minutes about a co-worker's vagina. Last night, my periphery involvement with a woman, lead to a periphery involvement in a urinary tract infection conversation. It having nothing whatever to do with me, I tried my best to hold a separate conversation with Tim, not about, you know, our bodies. The two female conversees are two newish friends of mine. Girls I see pretty often and really enjoy being around. They're not really friends with each other, more friends of friends. The first one, the platonic friend, schooled me on my aversion to women's physical concerns about a month ago. I was told that being knowledgable about the current weather conditions of a woman's (or girlfriend's) vagina is not only an obligation and an responsibility, but also something of a honor. The other girl, the slightly less platonic one seemed trying to hold the conversation quietly. Understandable. The night before I described to her a film I had seen on Thursday in which a mother explains to her daughter how babies get both into and out of mommies. The film was made in the sixies and featured some truly bizarre moments of really progressive (very un-60s) sexual education. The scene in question featured a June Cleaver-ish mom and a six year old girl. The mother used hand gestures to convey how the process worked. She used the classic finger and thumb-forefinger circle to show the little girl how the baby got there. Then to show how the baby comes out she made a vagina with her two hands and expanded it. When the hand vagina was dilated enough she took one of her hands and pushed it as a fist out through the half circle of the other. We were dumbstruck. The platonic friend gasped. The sixties, it seemed, had all the same parts we have today.
The expectation, which I sometimes play to to be funny, is that men are either uncaring or grossed out. I am not grossed out, in the least. Honestly, you can talk about it. There is very little about the functioning of the human body that I am uncomfortable with. Nor am I uncaring. For fifteen years I've had recurring kidney troubles. It's not exactly the same, but it does affect my particulars. I'm happy that my co-worker had her baby. I'm sorry that my friend is in pain. It's none of my business, of course, but I would listen.

It's Monday all over. A good thing?

Friday, October 03, 2003

October has been a flood of birthdays.
Unpacking is at 60%.

Thursday, October 02, 2003

I don't know if it means that the little gremlins in my head are getting lazy or if it means that my subconcious is crystallizing or what, but it seems that my dreamworld has built up a warehouse of stage sets, to be taken out and lit properly as the dream demands. Over the past couple of years, I have noticed the same buildings and streets being used in different dreams. Maybe different furniture. My dream cycles continue to be incredibly intense in the mornings, and perhaps even contagious - while I was in Portland, E reported that her dreams had become vividly detailed and very intense the night I arrived and had continued as such throughout my visit.

All I can recall from recent dreams is that the number 1075 should have some sort of significance for me.

i like the word delicious. i also like to use the word as an adverb. for example, "that upma can be so deliciously obnoxious sometimes!"

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

I think the word "delicious" sucks. I want that word stricken from the English language. Its so corny and slimy. Oh, this snot pudding is delicious!

Do you guys remember how on Friends Chandler has that totally nebulous, sterile office job, and how in order to get a laugh out of that set-up they always refer to some piece of paperwork that has the acronym W.E.N.I.S? So, Chandler gets to say lines like, "I'm looking at the W.E.N.I.S. right now and I am not happy!" I've been giggling everytime someone hands me a folder this morning. The W.E.N.I.S...