Tuesday, December 30, 2003

When I got home to cook Christmas dinner, I was horrified to learn that neither my mom nor my aunt had Tony Chacherie's. I told them that it was a requirement for living in Orleans Parish, that I am surprised that no one had taken them away!

Here is a veggie friendly recipe that I was a big hit this year .....

Praline Yams

2 (16 or 17 oz) can of yams, drained
2 Tbsp butter
1/2 c heavy cream
1/2 c brown sugar
1/2 c chopped pecans
1/4 tsp salt
1 tsp vanilla

Arrange yams in a greased baking dish. Melt butter then add cream, sugar, pecans and salt. Simmer and stir for five minutes. Remove from heat then add vanilla. Pour sauce over yams. Bake for 20 minutes at 350 degrees.

Chuck Berry
Are you female or male: The Little Girl from Central
How do some people feel about you: Run Around
How do you feel about yourself: You Can Never Tell
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Bye Bye Johnny
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Reelin' and Rockin'
Describe where you want to be: The Promised Land
Describe how you live: Guitar Boogie
Describe how you love: Come On
Share a few words of wisdom: Don't You Lie to Me

Joan Jett
Are you female or male: Crimson and Clover
How do some people feel about you: Victim of Circumstance
How do you feel about yourself: Everyday People
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Make Believe
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Cherry Bomb
Describe where you want to be: Light of Day
Describe how you live: World of Denial
Describe how you love: Love is All Around
Share a few words of wisdom: I Love Rock and Roll

I am currently encased in a breathtaking pair of jeans (breathtaking not just for what they do for my figure, but the pricetag eeeeyow). This morning was a group expedition with a friend who works at Diesel in NYC and gets a 50% discount. We walked in, she handed us the jeans we were allowed to try on, we all look fabulous now. When I came out of the dressing room in the pair I have on now, Gr pointed at my butt and said "give me a pair that makes my butt look like hers." Looks like my salad diet has been paying off. The salad diet: At the fantastic burger joint, I'll just have a salad (and a large side of fries). At CPK, I'll just have the salad (topped with tomatoes, beets, bacon, avocado and creamy ranch dressing). At D&B's, I'll just have the salad (that comes with a steak on it). Plus today I watched the smoothie guy at Andy's make my guava smoothie with fruit and a carton labeled "Ice Cream Base." Oh. That must be why I like them so much.

These are fun. I had a rather hectic (and fun) weekend, so I'll have to do more later.

Album: In God's Country
Are you female or male: How You Want It Done (Big Bill Broonzy)
How do some people feel about you: Walkin' After Midnight (Patsy Cline)
How do you feel about yourself: Heaven's Radio (Molly O'Day and the Cumberland Mountain Folks)
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Run For A Long Time (Bill Landford & The Landfordaires)
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: The Promised Land (Johnnie Allan)
Describe where you want to be: This Land is Your Land (Woodie Guthrie)
Describe how you live: If I Had Possession Over Judgement Day (Robert Johnson)
Describe how you love: When My Heart Beats Like A Hammer (BB King)
Share a few words of wisdom: When Will We Be Paid? (The Staple Singers)

Band: Bon Jovi
Are you female or male: Someday I'll Be Saturday Night
How do some people feel about you: Lay Your Hands On Me
How do you feel about yourself: Mystery Train
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Captain Crash and the Beauty Queen From Mars
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: You Had Me From Hello
Describe where you want to be: Two Story Town
Describe how you live: I'll Be There For You
Describe how you love: Runaway
Share a few words of wisdom: Keep the Faith

Monday, December 29, 2003

1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
Robot Rock Band, Finishing my exams, meeting Carolyn- letting her win my heart.

2. What was your biggest disappointment?
I never get enough done, don't keep up my correspondances

3. What do you hope the new year brings?
Rendevous with friends old and new

4. Will you be making any New Year's resolutions? If yes, what will they be?
More work, applying for grants/entering competitions, festivals etc...Job applications
Less soda
A little More physical activity
A web page
100 pillows in the pillow room

5. What are your plans for New Year's Eve?
Maybe I'll be in Bethesda, Maybe here with my parents

Band: Breeders
Are you female or male: Invisible Man
How do some people feel about you: I Just Wanna Get Along
How do you feel about yourself: Do You Love Me Now?
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: No Aloha
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Divine Hammer
Describe where you want to be: Drivin' On 9
Describe how you live: S.O.S.
Describe how you love: Cannonball
Share a few words of wisdom: New Year

Band: Strokes
Are you female or male: Soma
How do some people feel about you: Hard to Explain
How do you feel about yourself: Is this It
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Alone, Together
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Someday
Describe where you want to be: The Modern Age
Describe how you live: Barely Legal
Describe how you love: trying your luck
Share a few words of wisdom: Take it or Leave it

Band: Yo La Tengo
Are you female or male: Tom Courtney
How do some people feel about you: outsmartener
How do you feel about yourself: Don't have to be so sad
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: How to make a baby elephant float
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Nothing but you and me
Describe where you want to be: Beach Party Tonight
Describe how you live: Today is the day
Describe how you love: Let's be Still
Share a few words of wisdom: Take care

I'm thinking about applying for a job at Tulane University, even though there's no way I'll get it.

I LOVE the song thingy. Stay tuned for more (this is the type of shit that keeps me occupied during my vacation)....

1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
Purchasing the house, trip to Hong Kong. Not sure how 2004 will supercede this one.

2. What was your biggest disappointment?
A family matter.

3. What do you hope the new year brings?
I'm hoping to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.

4. Will you be making any New Year's resolutions? If yes, what will they be?
Yes. Figuring out how to plant stuff in my flower beds, and keeping a regular exercise routine.

5. What are your plans for New Year's Eve?
Hangin' with my pal Robin.

1. from Weird Al
Are you female or male: Smells Like Nirvana
How do some people feel about you: Trigger Happy
How do you feel about yourself: Airline Amy
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Polka Your Eyes Out
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: I Was Only Kidding
Describe where you want to be: The Plumbing Song
Describe how you live: Taco Grande
Describe how you love: I Can't Watch This
Share a few words of wisdom: The White Stuff

2. Queen Latifah
Are you female or male: She's a Queen
How do some people feel about you: Set It Off
How do you feel about yourself: Ladies First
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Latifah's Had it Up 2 Here
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: U.N.I.T.Y.
Describe where you want to be: It's Alright
Describe how you live: Come Into My House
Describe how you love: Just Another Day
Share a few words of wisdom: Go Ahead

Sunday, December 28, 2003

1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
The album that Dawn Chorus recorded is easily my biggest accomplishment of the year.

2. What was your biggest disappointment?
Not watching the Great Muppet Caper with Hawaiian.

3. What do you hope the new year brings?
Many rock and roll shows and an official record release. Also money and women.

4. Will you be making any New Year's resolutions? If yes, what will they be?
I'm resolving to continue the progress I've made into healther eating and exercising. I know that's a common resolution, but I think I can stick with it this time.

5. What are your plans for New Year's Eve?
I'll be in Hickory doing nothing whatsoever. My mother is having some surgery two days before and I want to stick around to help her before I have to leave on the first.

This is endlessly entertaining...
Are you female or male: Jokerman
How do some people feel about you: Clean Cut Kid
How do you feel about yourself: Groom's Still Waiting at the Altar
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Love is Just a Four Letter Word
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: You Angel You
Describe where you want to be: Sitting on a Barbed Wire Fence
Describe how you live: I Am a Lonesome Hobo
Describe how you love: Can I Please Crawl Out Your Window?
Share a few words of wisdom: It Takes a Lot to Laugh, It Takes a Train to Cry

Are you female or male: All-American Man
How do some people feel about you: God of Thunder
How do you feel about yourself: Not for the Innocent
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Love's a Slap in the Face
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: She's So European
Describe where you want to be: Detroit Rock City
Describe how you live: Dontcha Hesitate
Describe how you love: Let's Put the X in Sex
Share a few words of wisdom: The Street Giveth and the Street Taketh Away


> Zach, how does the three-day fast work?

Same as a ten day fast, except less days. Also, less overall cleasing and so on. By the third day, though, you should be feeling the effects of carrying around less waste. The three day fast is (I hope) just a nice refresher. I hope to do the ten day fast again in the summer some time.

1. biggest accomplishment?
landing on my feet. and making another film. although, i feel like i didn't have a huge part in any of it.

2. biggest disappointment?
feeling hugely violated twice.
being stuck in the same day-job.
and not having a bigger part in the making of the film.

3. hope?
maybe a lasting love interest.
maybe a film project i'm proud of.

4. resolutions?
i have many goals. my resolution is to try and accomplish as many of them as possible.

5. plans for New Year's Eve?
low key. maybe dinner with maria. maybe not. if not, i think i'll just stay at home and rent a movie of something.

this is my list i posted on friendster. i have been meaning to do more... maybe i'll do them now.

Band: cornershop

1. are you male or female?:
inside rani

2. describe yourself?:
born disco; died heavy metal

3. how do some people feel about you?
good sh*t

4. describe your main interest:
change OR

5. how do you feel about yourself?:
my danging days are done

6. where would you rather be?
summer fun in a beat up datsun

7. describe how you live?:
funky days are back again

8. describe how you love:
tera mera pyar

9. share a few words of wisdom:
good to be on the road back home

Friday, December 26, 2003

I've added to my "locked the keys in the car" stories. Drove to Waikiki after work on Weds. to meet up with friends I haven't seen in ages, and locked my keys in the car, which I realized while I was standing outside the car doing my mobile phone-wallet-keys check. Er. Keys...still in ignition! At least the engine and lights were off. Went to the tiny dive bar my friends were at and called my sister, who broke up with the guy she'd been seeing on her way over.

Friday 5 then my other 10 band fill-ins.

1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
5 art shows.

2. What was your biggest disappointment?
I’d prefer not to relive them all to decide on the biggest

3. What do you hope the new year brings?
Music making, merry making, good food, travel, friends

4. Will you be making any New Year's resolutions? If yes, what will they be?

I make resolutions every day. I’m trying to be more real with my family and the expectations I have of them. I started on the phone with my sister last night, but I still have thousands of miles to go. At least 3000.

5. What are your plans for New Year's Eve?

Most likely sleep and starting 2004 well rested.

This is endlessly entertaining...
Are you female or male: New Girl
How do some people feel about you: Scared Straight
How do you feel about yourself: Cinnamon
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Blanket Hog
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Medicine Cabinet Pirate
Describe where you want to be: Sound of Coming Down
Describe how you live: Prom Night at Hater High
Describe how you love: Give Me a Moment
Share a few words of wisdom: It’ll Be a Breeze

Are you female or male: Girl on the Wing
How do some people feel about you: Pink Bullets
How do you feel about yourself: Weird Divide
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Pressed in a Book
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: The Past and Pending
Describe where you want to be: Gone for Good
Describe how you live: Fighting in a Sack
Describe how you love: Caring is Creepy
Share a few words of wisdom: One by One All Day

Are you female or male: Summer Babe
How do some people feel about you: We are underused
How do you feel about yourself: Old to Begin
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Silence Kit
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Best Friends Arm
Describe where you want to be: Shady Lane
Describe how you live: Rattled by the Rush
Describe how you love: We Dance
Share a few words of wisdom: Type Slowly

Are you female or male: What Difference Does it Make
How do some people feel about you: Big Mouth Strikes Again
How do you feel about yourself: I started something I Couldn’t Finish
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: The Boy With the Thorn in his Side
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Girlfriend in a Coma
Describe where you want to be: Nowhere Fast
Describe how you live: Heaven Knows I’m Miserable Now
Describe how you love: Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want
Share a few words of wisdom: That Joke Isn’t Funny Anymore

Are you female or male: Girl Named Sandoz
How do some people feel about you: Obscured
How do you feel about yourself: I am One
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Rocket
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Sweet Sweet
Describe where you want to be: In the Arms of Sleep
Describe how you live: Tales of a Scorched Earth
Describe how you love: Hummer
Share a few words of wisdom: Farewell and Goodnight

Are you female or male: Where Boys Fear To Tread
How do some people feel about you: Pissant
How do you feel about yourself: Take Me Down
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: To Forgive
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Crush
Describe where you want to be: The Bells
Describe how you live: We Only Come Out At Night
Describe how you love: Silverfuck
Share a few words of wisdom: Daydream

Are you female or male: boys don’t cry
How do some people feel about you: close to me
How do you feel about yourself: why can’t I be you
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: jumpin someone else’s train
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: short term effect/ one hundred years
Describe where you want to be:out of this world/last day of summer/ in between days
Describe how you live: in the same deep water as you
Describe how you love:if only tonight we could sleep
Share a few words of wisdom:another day

Are you female or male: I bleed
How do some people feel about you: Is she weird
How do you feel about yourself: Bone Machine
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: The Sad Punk
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Gouge Away
Describe where you want to be: Monkey Gone to Heaven
Describe how you live: I’ve Been Tired
Describe how you love: Gigantic
Share a few words of wisdom:Levitate me

Are you female or male: Classic Girl
How do some people feel about you: Ain’t No Right
How do you feel about yourself: Idiots Rule
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: No One’s Leaving
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Ocean Size
Describe where you want to be: Up the Beach
Describe how you live: Pigs in Zen
Describe how you love: Standing in the Shower… thinking
Share a few words of wisdom:Stop!

Are you female or male: Sasquatch vs. Francis Bacon
How do some people feel about you: Culprit Shy
How do you feel about yourself: Your Friends in Multimedia
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Satellite Texas Farm
Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Our Jedi Hero
Describe where you want to be: Formaldehyde
Describe how you live: Zeroes and Ones
Describe how you love: Plastic Afterglow
Describe how you love: Jupiter Fell Into a Lapse

1. Long Winters
2. Shins
3. Pavement
4. Smiths
5. Smashing Pumpkins
6. Smashing Pumpkins
7. The Cure
8. Pixies
9. Jane’s Addiction
10. Mars Accelerator

I could easily do 10 more of these.

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

Shelly - I'm happy with the fast for the most part. Its proven to be a surprisingly effective weight-loss tool. The weight I lost, I've kept off, despite having not changed my post-fast diet that much. The emotional high promised didn't really come through (although I guess I feel pretty good around day three or four), which I think had as much to do with my resistance to the lemonade as anything else. I basically hated it after the first couple of days and I only drank what I had to.

I'm tentatively planning to do the three-day version of the fast in late January or February. The fast provides a sense of control (and accomplishment) that I could stand to have every three months or so. It was good for me.

Leesee. I went and saw a bit of Upma’s brilliance at Con Works when Child Prodigies played. It showed with another film, a feature, called Pretend, which was pretty interesting. It was about two little girls who in order to try and mend their parent’s failing marriage, pretend one of the sisters has been kidnapped. So she hides in the woods and actually disappears. It starts out normally but then the narrative becomes non-linear and possibly non-objective. I don’t t see a ton of experimental film but this held my interest most of the way through.
I went to a graduation ceremony/ recruiting pitch for my friend’s self help church/cult organization (L an d ma rk Edu cation.) I can understand why it appeals to her, though I can’t say that I “get it.” I find myself searching as well. I briefly considered going to a midnight mass tonight because they are always so pretty. I went to the symphony to see Handel’s Messiah. I can’t say I enjoyed it properly, if what that means is actually paying close attention to the music, but I did let it carry me drifting, which made me briefly nostalgic for the pomp and circumstance of church (candles, choirs, incense, stained glass).What it really made me miss was an hour or so designated each week where I’d zone out and reflect quietly on my life. By middle school I’d given up on actually paying attention in church to the meaning of the proceedings because they’d only make me angry. Realistically I am not sure if I can ever make peace with the whole god idea, but I know I’ll never embrace it through a religion which condemns me and the whole wishy-washyness of all the new age spiritualism I’ve encountered rubs me the wrong way too. I suppose I’m contrarian by nature and religion doesn’t appeal to me because I don’t care for people in groups. In a lot of ways I’ve disconnected from the culture of where I grew up, and my family, and the religion they raised me in. Usually that feels liberating.

Anyway, just some stuff which touches on some themes we’ve talked about on here before; I’m resisting the urge to edit it out completely because in spite of the circular logic and poor sentence construction it is some of the stuff I’m mulling about lately.

I joined an art studio in Pioneer Square with 7 other artists. It is an experiment in location and collaboration for me. I hope it works out. It should provide some more frequent and higher traffic showing opportunities for me. Our first show will be in March. I curated an environmentally themed art show at my work, which is the best looking show in there to date, if I do say so myself. I sold a painting in a one weekend Restart show. It went to a collector in New York. Life interrupted quite a bit and my neck injury flared up pretty badly but I managed to finish the 30 paintings in 30 days challenge, though I was less than satisfied with the results. I sold a few, but plan on reclaiming most of them this weekend and reworking them in the coming year. I saw the documentary filmed about the painting marathon last year. Seeing myself on a screen that large was really odd. I hadn’t realized how low cut the shirt I’d worn was, for example. I was really (really) nervous for that filming. Seeing the end result a year later, I didn’t care for the way the film characterized some things but you live and learn. Next time. Next time.
Found out that a painter one grade up who went to high school with Steph, Angie, and I had been murdered. His wife was also from our high school. Not much else to say about that. I didn’t really know him though I remember him. Somehow I can’t get the story out of my mind though.

Thanksgiving was very quiet and very pleasant. Did the annual thing. Dutch was not there, though the professor was.

I am anxiously awaiting year end top ten lists….
I got the Jandek tribute album, which is surprisingly listenable. It will be a race now to see if it will be Mike or me who is the first Jandek completist. (Actually bet on Brendan.)

I spent a lovely week in Boston with Mike and all of his various friends, cronies, lackeys and cats. Of course since I am allergic, Zo felt the need to jump on my chest while I was sleeping and lick my face. I managed to fly in just under the first snowstorm of the winter, which was quite unlike anything I’ve ever seen before. The private tour of the JFK museum Mike hooked up was awesome. I got to hold Ernest Hemmingway’s dogtags in my hand. I toured nothing historical since it was all under snow, but I had a bunch of lovely walks, got a pair of (pink flowered) galoshes to protect my cold wet feet. I was unable to verify the artist of the sculpture on the common that looked like a Giacometti. Further research is needed. It was a vacation I needed and a visit that was long overdue. I’ll be back.

Zach, how do you feel after the fact on the fast?

I’ve broken and fixed my jukebox several times. What can I say? She’s a tempermental lady. Surprise. Surprise. The playlist v1.1 is nearly complete though. Then I’ll have a party.

Christmas should also be somewhat quiet. I’ve already begun the process of opting out for next year. Tonight will be with Citron & Tara, tomorrow with Dutch & BL, Friday with Bonnie and Ray.

In lieu of, or in addition to the recently MIA Friday 5s, here is a little game I found amusing. I’ll post the other 10 I did later on:

Band: Blake Babies

Are you female or male: Girl in a Box

How do some people feel about you: Out There

How do you feel about yourself: You Don't Give Up

Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: I'm Not Your Mother

Describe your current/future girlfriend/boyfriend: Temptation Eyes

Describe where you want to be: Downtime

Describe how you live: Cesspool

Describe how you love: Over and Over

Share a few words of wisdom: Lament

oh and happy holidays ya'll.

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

Carl and I wish you Happy Holidays.

Updated post: my mom bought a freakin' 18 pound turkey!!!!!

I'm assuming it's your b-day Kainui???? If so happy day! Jack Johnson is good, even though a bunch of teenie boppers like him. He was good at the Austin City Limits Festival. He and G-Love did a few tunes together.

This past weekend my college room mate's husband graduated with his phd. I went to the ceremony, and both sets of parents were there so it was good to visit. My old roomie comes from a long line of Catholic Cajuns just west of Lafayette, and her husband comes from a town near the LA/MS border, so they are pretty much Baptist rednecks. I told the roomie's dad that I needed to sit next to him, because if I somehow slipped that the Baptists just weren't as forgiving....

You know, my favorite part of the winter holiday is spending time with my friends' families. I know it's weird, but I've got some family drama to deal with this year, so it's much easier to show face for a bit then take the fire exit out. For many years I thought it best to stick around and be miserable the whole time. After a few years of torture, I decided that it just wasn't worth the fight.

For my escape, I will be spending some time with my best friend's family, as I did last year. It's always fun for me, because my family has never done the Christmas candy thing.

Monday, December 22, 2003

I think I'm going to go ahead and buy Jack Johnson's CDs already, instead of buying a couple of songs every few days off of iTunes.

Last year my birthday breakfast was champagne and smoked salmon. Champagne is gigglejuice for me, and Lola got quite a bit of smoked salmon as a result. After the solstice party last night, I had a thimble of champagne and thought of her fondly. Here's to Lola, and may her fur never wash out of my overcoat.

Sunday, December 21, 2003

re-location: realistically and practically, i'm in philly for a minimum of 10 more months. i have to stop committing myself to things. as of now, my decision is that i will either go to DC, Chapel Hill or Richmond. who knows what happens in the next 10 months to screw up this plan.

dawn chorus tour: okay gentlemen, you win. zach, we'll figure out logistics later, i am planning nyc and dc with you.

projects: doing way too much. yet never enough.
things i am doing: finishing up the green party doc, preparing to teach Final Cut Pro for 10 weeks at University of the Arts, starting docs (maybe 2, maybe 3?) on various south asian themes/topics, writing a narrative script about being south asian in the states, curating south asian film fest.... do we see a theme?? i suppose i'm trying to "cure" my identity crisis by getting to know my identity a litte bit better...? who knows, really. but at least i'm working.
things i'm not doing: i have nothing for global super 8 day. shame, shame, shame.

misc: think i'm gonna get a new computer soon.
still kinda raining men... but maybe it's slowed down to a slight drizzle.
dreaming about flies a lot lately, also dreamt that i had a kid. but no dad in sight.
just saw something on tv-- in german. about an english man's cab company. called KarmaKabs, a very small taxi business that charges a not-so-small price to ride in this car that is protected by the Hindu god Ganesh.
think i'm gonna hit the italian market now for some meat and produce.

Saturday, December 20, 2003

It's impossible for me to experience road rage while singing along to Bon Jovi (as long as I don't close my eyes during the chorus, which is surprisingly difficult during Wanted Dead Or Alive at top volume). My youngest sister has gone from cringing to trying to drown me out. I'm pretty sure she's the only one in her peer group who knows all the words to I'll Be There For You. Fortunately for her, the car stereo is radio only, so I have to hold out for a singable tune. Sometimes we get one that both of us will gleefully bellow along to (try Hey Ya, complete with the finger wiggles). Last night Hey Ya started just as we turned into the driveway, so I parked and we got that station wagon bouncing for the next three minutes. If I get an iPod with external speakers, look out world.

Friday, December 19, 2003

I have been making good use of the public library. The State Library is housed in a wonderful old building next to I'olani Palace in Honolulu. The building has an open courtyard in the center, with open-air hallways furnished with tables and chairs. When the weather is good (and it is more often than not), it's a particularly peaceful way to pass a few hours. If food and drinks were allowed, I'd spend even more time there. I spend most of my library time at the small public library next to my sister's dance school, as well as the used bookstore a block away. My current stack of books:

Road to Baghdad/Behind Enemy Lines: The Adventures of an American Soldier in the Gulf War, Martin Stanton
Jarhead: A Marine's Chronicle of the Gulf War and Other Battles, Anthony Swofford
The Year's Best Fantasy First Annual Collection, Ellen Datlow & Terri Windling, eds.
Dragon's Lair, a Medieval Mystery, Sharon Kay Penman
My Life As A Fake, Peter Carey
Corpse: Nature, Forensics, and the Struggle to Pinpoint Time of Death, Jessica Snyder Sachs
The Year's Best Science Fiction, Ninth Annual Collection, Gardner Dozois, ed.
Quicksilver, Volume One of the Baroque Cycle, Neal Stephenson
Cookwise: The Hows and Whys of Successful Cooking with over 230 Great-Tasting Recipes, Shirley O. Corriher

Yesterday I took my youngest sister to see Return of the King. Yes, it's true, I saw a movie that is not rated G! 3.5 hours dominated by battle scenes. Not really my cup of tea. I spent some time during the last third of the movie covertly observing the response of the military officer seated near me. The man welled up and got emotional during the last two battle scenes.

Michael, y'all are welcome to crash. You have first dibs on the queen sized futon sofa bed in the second bedroom. If I like one of your friends enough, he can share my bed with me. JUST KIDDING, REALLY.

Was wondering about the Manny/A-rod deal. How do you feel about your new team's potential? I seriously doubt that Clemens will come back. There's all this talk, but I don't buy it. In other news I splurged and bought myself a mini season ticket package, assuring me entry to the 2004 All Star game. I'll say this again: I'm SO excited and BROKE.

Zach, where does the term "lost highway" originate?

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Last night the snow broke for a few hours so that I could leave Buffalo. Like thousands if not millions of people, I flew on the centennial of the first manned flight, flying for me has always felt special, in the sense that it should be impossible, barely imaginable. I saw the sun set on the Appalachians as we made our descent into Baltimore.

Tomorrow I head out for central/western Virginia. My youngest sibling is graduating from college, it's not so much a big deal for him (he didn't really have much of an interest in school) but the rest of the family is proud (because he did follow through) and it marks a serious turning point in my parents lives -- After putting 4 kids through college -with serious help from student loans - they no longer have to write checks to large universities. The economic burden of "higher education." I hope they feel as if they got good returns on their investments, it's probably too soon to tell.

I'm really for the first time, I mean really really going to try to get some work done while I'm at home for the next few weeks. I always have intentions of doing something but usually spend the days playing with the dog, the kids my mom babysits for and catching up on useless TV.
My parents like it when I stay for a couple of weeks at a time because they think it's the only time I relax, when really I start to get tense and nervous and possibly guilty when I'm not actively working on something. This time it's going to be different. It has to be.

I'm subtly fighting for familial paradigm shifts this time around, starting with my own attitudes about what it means to come home for the holidays.

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

Angie - I won't be in New Orleans for New Years or I would so be there - rocking and bowling with you.

I can't remember if I said this but Mike you are more than welcome to stay with me if you come down for Superbowl. Do you think that the Manny/A-Rod deal with go through? I reiterate: it would be good for Boston to loose Manny and his attitide. Nomar would be greatly missed though. Any chance they can move him over to 2B? Or will his salary be too much to take? There is still all kinds of hype about Clemens, but I just don't believe any of it.

Wish I could meet up with everyone in D.C. this Christmas but my pocketbook is tight.

JT, we are glad that you are back.

Steph, Shelly: Rebirth is playing at Rock and Bowl Dec. 29. I so want to go but there is no one in the city who would enjoy it the way either of you do....Also, I got the BF alumni newsletter. There was no mention of our reunion. I toyed with the idea of organizing it myself but I am not yet committed to the idea. Am I completely off my rocker???

Everyone who works with digital pics: what program do you use to make your pics smaller? I have Photoshop, but it doesn't make them small enough (I want to get them in the 50K or less range). Also do any of you recommend any sites for posting and showing?

Did everyone get their Christmas cards?

Oh Mike. I can't offer anything worth flying to see. We're playing in NYC too. That's just a train ride from Boston, right? I think Upma might come to that one, too.

Monday, December 15, 2003

JT - Its the Galaxy Hut in Arlington, VA. Here's the site: www.galaxyhut.com

I'm very excited that you're coming. Maybe together we can talk Upma into driving down that night.

tucker vs the squirrel.
if the plant gets knocked over into the sink again, who wants to save tucker's life? i mean it. she kills the plant because of the stupid squirrel who knocks on my bathroom window cuz he wants to come in and destroy everything... i mean, he's destroying just as much cuz he's provoking the damn cat who won't listen when i tell her he's doing it on purpose.

mistakenly getting sucked into Miss Match... there are Indian people all over the TV. is every episode like this... i'm sure that's a negative.

OH. will be programming/curating a south asian mini film fest this summer. know any indians, pakistanis, sri lankans, or bengalis who make media? tell them to get in touch with me. more details as i make them up.

jt. i love you too.

My last few days in Buffalo for a little while.

I've been on sabatical from my life. I thought things would be easier after my exams. It's never the truth. Now instead of giving exams I'm making (parts of) them, and grading them.

Just getting back into it, my life that is.

Ha Ha... Carolyn saw Anni DiFranco at Edritos a while ago eating a fish taco. Anni DiFranco eating a fish taco... irony doesn't come much sweeter than that. She's re-building a huge church downtown to house the Righteous Babe headquarters including a recording studio and performance space. Righteous Babe in a Church, she's full of irony.

Spent Saturday bumming around Toronto with Tony Conrad. We went to all his favorite Fallafel shops, an imported cheese store (I got some Swiss cheese aged in Apple Cider), the open air market on Kensington etc... He told me stories about how he spent three months in East Germany (Before the Wall!) living off a dollar a day. This was right after he was programming Belgium's only Computer. The guy is a nut.

I'll be in DC from this Wednesday until Jan 5. I'm sticking around to see the Dawn Chorus on the 4th. Let us know when you know the venue, Zach. Also, I like the Dawn Chorus stuff Zach, but there's still a spot in my heart for the Dirty Version's "sick day"

Robot Rock Band page has been updated.

Applying for jobs, I could possibly be the next Tech director for HallWalls. That would be nice. I would rate working there a 10, if I were to take a survey that asked me such a thing.

New stuff up at RobotRockBand.com

I'm resolving to post more often for real. I mean it.

I'm sure you've all been asking the same question as I have. Did the US really capture Sadam or Santa. I guess we'll find out in about 10 days.

On to catching up with other correspondances. I love you guys.

Friday, December 12, 2003

Zach, sounds like you had a blast. Sorry I missed your b-day. Mike, same goes for you. Damn it I need to put all of your days on my calendar otherwise I will never remember. I also need to send out an updated address list. I will do all of that post Jan. 1.

Mike, I am ecstatic about Pettitte. It would be great to add Roger, in any capacity. I doubt seriously 1. that he will come outof retirement and 2. that Drayton will put up the bucks for him, considering how much we are paying Andy. Side note: I have been doing nothing but reading stories about it. I can't believe that the Chronicle leaked news about the deal (they are INFAMOUS for being a sleepy ass paper) and that Newsday broke the day of story. I thought the Times would be in there somewhere.....

I about got into a cat fight earlier today. She, like me, is full of spunk and can throw around some attitude. Thing is, she regularly runs people over (it's all about getting HERS -selfish, selfish, selfish!) but no one ever says anything. That makes me frustrated with the people who got screwed and with her. Mostly her, because she knows she can get away with it with everyone but me. I was complaining earlier tonight, because I know that I can surpass her in bitchiness if I so choose but who the hell wants to be so god damn miserable all of the time? Besides, I am *trying* to make it a point of not calling so many damn people out, it's bad for my blood pressure....

Picked up a completely undeserved award from my boss. Well it was an informal award but still. I worked hard this semster, but I know for a fact that at least one other person in the office went above and beyond what I did, and I told my boss and her so.

I was going through the guilt thing earlier tonight. A friend of mine invited me to his going away party at the last minute (he's staying in the city, he's just quitting his job). I told him late yesterday that I would make it but I just didn't feel like being the social butterfly. I sent him an e-mail and came home instead, picked up some stuff at the grocery for a Christmas party on Sun. at the house, then I wrapped most all my presents and am listening to Christmas music, in my flannel PJ's even though it's probably only 40 degrees outside.

I never thought in a millions years that I would choose to fly solo over a party with music, food and such. I've turned into an OLD WOMAN!!!!!! I say that but tomorrow night I have two parties to attend.....

I decided I didn't like the other look. I hope you guys weren't too into it.

Thursday, December 11, 2003

Happy B-day, Z. I raise a glass of juice to you.

It's been a fun week to be a Greensboroite. Gate City Noise hosted its first ever 24 Hour Sale. December 9th was Reading Day, which is the day before exams begin when students are encouraged to study all day. We thought that if people were going to be up all night studying, we'd give them a chance to take a break, come to the store and buy a CD or something. When, Andrew opened the store at 11AM on Tuesday, everything was 10% off. Then at 12 Midnight the discount changed to 15% off. At 3AM, the discount became 20%. At 5AM, we had Greensboro's first ever early morning show. Dawn Chorus (my band) started things off at 5. Then, Tigerbearwolf at 6AM and Kudzu Wish at 7. It was a huge sucess. The store made almost record breaking sales. Most of which were after Midnight. It was awesome. I worked the register from 12 to 5, and I was busy almost the entire time. Our only downtime was from 1:30-3. Andrew wants to do it all again at the end of next semester.

Tonight, the Green Bean held the Winter 2003 Paper, Rock, Scissors Tournament. There were almost 100 hundred people registered to play, with probably double that standing around to watch. I got a buy on the first round because my opponent bailed. In the second round Shane Straight beat me with paper over my rock. Andrew got interviewed for the TV news. It was a pretty fun night. A good way to spend a birthday. People kept buying me juice.

Greensboro's been a nice place this winter. The weather's been cold, but clear. Since my job has ended, I've been taking long walks to downtown. The exercise is nice. It makes me feel better.

Things are less appealing in my house situation. I would probably benefit greatly from a better attitude toward my roommates.

Christmas looms. I'll get to spend a week or so with my family before Dawn Chorus goes on our mini-tour. Mom's going to have some surgery. Its nothing to worry about she says, and it probably isn't, but I worry anyway. I'm going to be glad to be there when she has it done.

Tonight, after all that Rock, Paper, Scissors, I'm totally beat. I'll sleep like log tonight.

Happy Birthday! Any special events planned?

It's my birthday today. Happy Birthday to me!

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

zm. enjoy some cake and ice cream. love you.

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

Weez: Wish I could help but the only boys that are shorter than me are aged 10 and younger or midgets/dwarfs. I don't particularly care for guys who are over 6'1 or 6'2, because I'm straining my neck the entire looking up.

Ask away on the questions, otherwise I'll just post things as I recall them.

I did get my hair trimmed and highlighted/colored out there. The big difference was that the stylist trimmed my hair dry, and he didn't put in the color until after he pretty much shaped my hair. After the color, he trimmed again. My hair dresser here would always color then does all of the trimming. I also bought some Sheshidio face stuff, as it is the premiere brand of Asia. Most of the stuff you can get in the U.S. but there were some things that were out of Japan and only sold in Asia.

You have to bring your own kleenex/napkins to restaurants because they don't supply you with any. Some places have napkins but they charge you for it.

I had a hell of time finding English language newspapers, but I did read a few issues of the South China Morning Post. I can't remember if it is published in Taiwan or Hong Kong. It was great, because the focus was Asia and Europe. The TV, however, sucked. There were about three English stations and three Chinese ones. And nothing but freakin' soccer. Oh teh biggest story was that there was an alligator on the loose somewhere near the port I guess -- I didn't catch all the details.

Oh, funny. One of the Chinese stations. In the mornings, there would be lessons for the kids. The one episode I saw was teaching kids to cross the street. I saw another half of one with seniors talking about the art of calligraphy. It was stereotypical in that they showed the older gents coming from tai chi and drinking hot tea.

Angie - I love hearing about your trip.
It's craftytime at my house right now. I'm working on a few scarfs and made 90 personalized magnets for family and friends. I'm only now beginning to unhunch.
Last night I dreamed about getting keys made, giant-sized versions of my friends and a doll taking my seat in the movie theater.
I'm working on a science book now which is all kinds of fun.

Monday, December 08, 2003

Angie, I know you are super hyper busy, but I want to know more about your trip!

Upma, move to Portland. Amazing live music scene, cute boys, and Shelly is just a couple of hours away.

Have been hired for a catering gig. The hourly is 3.5x what I make at the co-op, and there will be loads of champagne. It's going to be a happy solstice.

Have any of you dated with a big height difference? Esp. girl significantly taller than guy.

Saturday, December 06, 2003

Where oh where does the time go?

Sorry that I've been out of pocket. I kept telling myeslf that I was going to post a good, long post, to make up for my lack of participation. Today would be the day for it. My sleep patterns are *still* all out of whack, so much that I am all bright eyed and bushy tailed at 6 a.m. on a Saturday. What the FUCK? And once I am up I can't get back to sleep, no matter how long I stare at the wall.

Anyways.....about the trip.

I will say that it is an interesting and unique experience to have your parents as your room mate for nearly two weeks. I knew that my mom snored like a fright train but apparently my father has developed the habit as well. Not quite a train, but still certainly audible. My dad also has the habit of waking up in the middle of the night and spontaneously turning on the TV for a few hours. So here it is 4 a.m., and my dad flips on the TV. Mom after 10 days *still* didn't figure out how to flush the damn toilet (there's hardly any flush out there, so you have to hold the handle down). And she enjoyed turning on the light and munching on trial mix at 6 a.m.. At one point, I sat up and said, "Everyone: could we please try to be quiet?????"

Seriously though, that was just the funny side of things and me being the smart ass that I truly am.

The city was fast-paced and busy, just like a Manhattan. HKers were more rude though, blatantly standing in your way, never excusing themselves after running into you. The great contradiction though was that at the dinner table, surrounded by family, HKers were all about ettiquite. My ass got chewed because I accepted a hot tea refill from a middle-aged man. (lesson learned: never accept anything from someone your senior, and you as the younger should be doing the refilling).

Did lots of shopping and bartering (side note: I love bartering). Much sightseeing. Went to two Buddhist temples, the Sun Yat-Sen Memorial, Victoria's Peak (highest point on HK island), a museum with some of the terra cotta warriors, a former school that was turned into an art museum, even a kindergarten class.

The food as you can imagine was amazing. I ate nothing but Chinese food. Drank lots of "nai cha" (or tea with milk in it, various versions of Chai tea). There is this new drink out there that consists of three layers of anything. For example one layer would have tapioca balls, another layer would be a mango smoothie and the third would be coconut milk. Very yum and tasty. And there was this great milk pudding. You could get regular, coffee or mango flavored. I got the regular with lotus on top. YUM. All of the bakery items, fruits, veggies, meats were SO fresh, it's made grocery shopping back here very difficult.

If you visit, the things you need to be prepared for: buy bottled water while there, purchase tissue (the restaurants don't give you napkins except the high class ones and there isn't always toilet paper in the bathrooms), and be prepared because about 25 percent of the toilets are non-existent. I.e., it's a whole in the ground, with the water bowl above head, and a string coming down, that you pull to flush. Very strange.

All in all, an amazing experience, especially since I was there with my parents. I would do it all over again and again in a heartbeat. Only next time I would consider getting my own hotel room!

I opened the refrigerator and saw not one, but two jars of Jif peanut butter, and my fresh-ground organic almond butter is nowhere to be found. Class warfare, I tell you.

Friday, December 05, 2003

z, i like the new bg.
first snowfall of the season. tucker seems pretty mesmerized by it. she's the cutest little girl ever.
have had a rough couple of weeks, mentally and emotionally. trying to kick myself in the pants in order to clear my head.
starting to think of a re-location plan. depending on the job sitch, would like to be out of philly as early as this summer.

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

New background. What thinks ye?

Got sick all last week. Cold. No fun, but Thanksgiving was good in spite of it.

TV on the Radio played the store last night. We hung out at Andrew's house after the show. They were really super cool. I hope to see them again when we play NYC in January.